Darky's Bubble Of Love

HURR DEE HURR DEE HURR

2006-12-01T13:40:39Z

1. YOUR SPY NAME: (middle name and current street name)
Julian Tower Close (!?)

2. YOUR CLASSIC MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your dad's side, your favorite candy)
Ellen Chocolate

3. YOUR RAP NAME (first initial of first name, first three or four letters of your last name)
N Dal. (o_O)

4. YOUR GAMER TAG: (a favorite color, a favorite animal)
Purple Cat.

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Julian Brentwood.

6.YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of your pet's name)
Dal Laltig (o_O?)

7. JEDI NAME: (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards)
Nailuj (No last name - I can't spell it fowards, let along backwards. XD)

8. PORN STAR NAME: (first pet's name, the street you grew up on)
Tiger Tower. (Fffft.)

9. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, the automobile your mom/dad drives)
...The Purple-... (GodIdon'trememberwhatcarhedrives.)

10. YOUR ACTION HERO NAME: (first name of the main character in the last film you watched, last food you ate)
Westley Pringle. (WIN.)

darky_hitori @ 2006-11-19T11:20:00

2006-11-19T11:20:51Z

Long time no post!

But I'm alive, seriously.

Kayso.

As I posted in TGUK -

"Kayso. I'm getting a bit worried.

I was finally getting somewhere - spoke to a Doctor, who spoke to the PCT, who got her to refer me to a Mental Health Clinic for an assessment so that I could show I was mentally stable, so that the PCT would fund my referral to Charing Cross.

Well - on the 21st August I had that assessment. It went perfectly well, and I was told that I would soon get a letter telling me my appointment with a psychiatrist, which would be in a couple of weeks.

I never got that letter.

Two months later - I called them and thse secretary had no idea what was going on, and later the nurse (Tim) that I had the assessment with called. He basically wouldn't take any reponsibility for it and acted as if he had no idea what was happening, and that he would get right on it.

That was 16 days ago - I still haven't gotten an appointment.

I'm going to call tomorrow and ask what is going on, but like.. I suffer with social anxiety, meaning that making these phone calls is bloody difficult for me, but without that appointment I can never get my referral.

If it's still not done, I'm going to contact the Doctor who has been helping with all of this for advice."

What I've decided to do, upon a friend's advice and my irritance towards the MHC, is I'm going to call the surgery on monday morning and try to book an appointment with that Doctor (Dr. Hill) to ask her about it.

This friend got funding for his referral based on his assessment, which sounds totally right - there should be no need for be to see a psychiatrist if the assessment went fine, right? It'd only be to spend weeks talking about utter bollocks when I have no Trans-related issues, and it would just take longer to get the referral.

So I'ma ask her to contact the MHC for me, as it'd be much easier. (Seeing as how they pretty much ignore me.)

News: I now have a packer! From http://www.lovehoney.co.uk It's hilarious and feels scarily like a real penis! I also have a scary, black latex strap-on.

I win. 8D

:D! Hah!

2006-08-12T11:02:32Z

http://artemis-lune.livejournal.com/

Only add if you're bizarre, k.

D:

2006-08-12T09:57:32Z

I'd like to make an update.

But all I can think about is sex.

And you don't want to hear about sex.

So.

Maybe I need to make a new friends-only super-secret journal. :0

Y'know what?

I think I will.

:D

2006-08-09T18:26:08Z

Bas says:
Passionate love makes you strong enough to act; true love makes you strong enough to wait.

darky_hitori @ 2006-08-09T12:43:00

2006-08-09T11:43:28Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi.	✓ I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
✓ I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
✓ I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
× I have a lot of mood swings.	✓ I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent.	✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	× I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
× I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	✓ I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	× I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	✓ I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	✓ I can't whistle.
× I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
✓ I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	× I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	✓ I have terrible teeth.
✓ I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	✓ I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
✓ I can't stand being alone.	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	✓ I'm a judgmental asshole.	✓ I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	× I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
× I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	✓ I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	✓ I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	✓ The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
✓ I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	✓ Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	✓ I don't like to chew gum.
✓ I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	✓ I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	✓ I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	✓ I love playing Truth or Dare.	✓ I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	✓ I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

:0 LOL.

2006-08-05T14:13:48Z

Psychiatry assessment on Wednesday.

*Shudder*

I love Guide. :D He gave me the link for Smitten Kitten, a feminine sex shop.

I'm totally going to get a lilac packer and a harness. :O I really want to draw a smiley face on the end of the packer. 8D

darky_hitori @ 2006-07-21T11:31:00

2006-07-21T11:10:55Z

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Take the What Type of Friend Are You? quiz.

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Take the Role-Playing Stereotype quiz.

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TAEK MOI KWEEZ PLZ

2006-07-14T17:39:27Z

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/quizpage.php?quizname=060714133508-989426&

See that long, ugly, undisguised link?

LICKIT.

Imean.

CLICKIT.

Plz. ;3

Taek moi kweez and see how much you know about MOI.

Beetches.

YEEEEEES.

2006-07-11T13:18:16Z

8D

The Limes just called.

I just got an appointment with Dr. Hill on Wed. 26th July at 4.30PM to "discuss the referral."

This must mean that she got funding! :D

Well, I imagine so. XD

So, yay!

REFERRALREFERRALREFERRAL!!

darky_hitori @ 2006-07-09T19:32:00

2006-07-09T18:33:31Z

I refuse to feel guilty about loving someone.

I don't care if her self-obsessed friend who does nothing but bitch about her behind her back is in love with her - I refuse to feel guilty about that, because it's not my fault.

I'm not trying to steal her away, and nothing is my fault.

Why must I feel guilty about this?

darky_hitori @ 2006-07-06T19:26:00

2006-07-06T18:26:29Z

♪[26] ~o~ Special Fruits Candy ~o~ ♪ nsәp says:
Just do your breast.
♪[26] ~o~ Special Fruits Candy ~o~ ♪ nsәp says:
GAAANBAAATTEEEE.

I shouldn't be allowed to use a computer.

:C

2006-07-06T08:43:52Z

Anyone want a lodger?

I can't stand having to live here for 5-10 years, and I refuse to get a two-bedroom flat to live with Tracy.

This is fooking ridiculous.

How the fuck do people ever move out?

Appointment~

2006-07-01T09:03:47Z

Just got a letter through the door for my appointment at that youth clinic. C:

It's next Thursday at 4PM - luckily the place is just opposite the Playhouse Theatre so I'll be able to find it easily. No idea how long it'll last. With someone named, "Shelly". :D

Solike.

Things I need to mention:
-Gender Identity Dysphoria
-Past issues with bipolar tendancies
-Anxiety
-Slightly uncontrollable depression at times though that is few and far between now
-Paranoia of veryvery small case of paranoid schizophrenia being suggested to me because of the hearing voices and noises thing

I think that's about it. C:

And The Results Are In...

2006-06-24T18:59:32Z

83 Purity.

17 Impurity.

...;D

http://fuck-you.org/pt2k/toc.php

83

2006-06-20T16:21:26Z

So!

I just got back from The Limes.

Dr. Hill was, as always, totally awesome - and she liked my new blue hair, although I got odd looks from old people.

Rightkayso!

She asked me how I was, then started digging through her folder. "You see, the day after our appointment, I was looking through this magazine - we get GP magazines, you see - and there was an article on gender issues, and it had some places to contact.."

We discussed Charing Cross Hospital/Claybrook Gender Identity Clinic, and how I had also researched it, and she showed me links in the folded up, torn-out article for gender issues - and we laughed at how I had been to every single one of them. (Like Mermaids 'n' Beaumont, 'n' various others.)

She then told me how for Charing Cross I need to be 18 which is fine because I nearly am, and that she will need to ask for funding.

She began writing an e-mail giving information about me, asking questions so that she could provide a strong case - my history as Transgendered, and all of that boring junk that I don't need to type here~

So, yes!

Basically.

She will ask the PCT for funding because Charing Cross is out of the area in West London, and it's most likely that we will get funding - then when we do which will prolly be in a couple of weeks, she will refer me to Charing Cross~

;D

I'm in a calm state of "OMFGEXCITEMENTWTF."

*Wheeze*

Yes.

This is all a bit surreal.

:3

2006-06-17T16:50:59Z

I'm really nervous about the appointment on Tuesday - but I'm also really happy about getting to see Sophie early next month, hopefully on the 1st.

Also, my parents have re-arranged their bedroom so now the sun is shining from the three big windows onto the computers, rather than the computers being in a dark corner - it's really nice~

And now!

You scored as Neither. You think neither like a man or a woman. What you are you may decide for yourself. Most people will consider you strange, alien, weird or funny. You are probably quite interesting.

</td>

Neither

43%

Male

43%

Female

21%

Either

21%

Should you be MALE or FEMALE?*
created with QuizFarm.com

; ~;

2006-06-16T17:34:18Z

Lolololol.

2006-06-15T16:02:18Z

YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
I've never seen a dead person. I'm so sheltered.
♪[47] ~o~ Special Fruits Candy ~o~ [16]♪ says:
I was quite young at the time so it was an odd experience.
♪[47] ~o~ Special Fruits Candy ~o~ [16]♪ says:
X3
♪[47] ~o~ Special Fruits Candy ~o~ [16]♪ says:
I could kill someone for you and have them sent through the post if you like. C:
YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
make it someone from that maji de lot.
YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
whatevertheywerecalled
♪[47] ~o~ Special Fruits Candy ~o~ [16]♪ says:
XD
♪[47] ~o~ Special Fruits Candy ~o~ [16]♪ says:
We can film you raping their corpse, then sell it on the internet. C:
♪[47] ~o~ Special Fruits Candy ~o~ [16]♪ says:
(Both the film -and- the corpse.)
YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
when I've finished raping the corpse I go "WHO'S MAJI DE-ING NOW, MUDDAFUKKER!!" at the corpse.
♪[47] ~o~ Special Fruits Candy ~o~ [16]♪ says:
o_o
YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
and it becomes internet legend. And people point at me in the street
YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
and are like "U KILLED MAJI DE ):"
YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
and I am like "OH YES 8D BWUAHAHHAA"
YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
*takes some ritalin*
♪[47] ~o~ Special Fruits Candy ~o~ [16]♪ says:
>>;;;
YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
thatwasquitescary.

darky_hitori @ 2006-06-14T16:12:00

2006-06-14T15:12:59Z

Dear LiveJournal,

Today, Sophie declared that she was naked.

Much fun was had by all!

Especially for Sophie and I.

CX.

2006-06-13T06:56:10Z

I found the TGUK community last night and they're so nice~

Solike. I posted up my little Trans-history and three people commented giving me great help about, like, Charing Cross 'n' whatnot~ (Including telling me to get there with an hour before or after to spare, because there's a nice cemetary. XD Wickedawesome)

So, basically!

If Dr. Hill refers me - then it'll probably be 4-6 months for my first appointment at the Claybrook/Charing Cross Gender Clinic in London. I'll go, get diagnosed 'n' shizzle and basically will be have to be living as male - no problem.

In August I'll have my inheritance, and I plan to re-deck my wardrobe (shoppingspreelol~) with all male clothes, God yes. And I'll be getting my hair cut, 'n' all that shizzle - and when searching for a job, I shall be out as a Transman.

Then after the first appointment I should get a second appointment - that will take another 4-6 months to wait. At said appointment, if all has gone well, I should hopefully get prescribed T. :3

Also, I need to get my name legally changed before, like, the second appointment.

All in all, I'm very happy with where this is going - I've got prolly just under a year's worth of full preperation. C:

Dreamless Alone~

2006-06-11T15:04:38Z

H4X!

I've been saying that so much lately - I don't know why. XD

But, anyway.

Ever since that last little burst of, "IDON'TWANTHORMONESNOGOAWAY." I've been doing a lot better. I've gotten to the point where I no longer need to beg people like poor Bas for confirmation.

It's taken a while, but getting off of the computer and talking to my family and speaking to Dr. Hill has made me realise exactly what I want - I can't just think about how life will be, I have to live my life to really see what the changes will be.

Basically - I plan to transition. It's definate now, and I'm sure my family will deal with it, although it will be awkward. I love them, and I'm relying on them to try and cope, and I'm sure they will.

Sophie is absolutely lovely about it and I know she'll support me either way. Although now I have to quote her XD -

YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
I think it is a Good Thing if you think it is a good thing. I mean, obviously if you didn't want to do it it wouldn't be yada yada but I don't think that was really what you're asking. From a physical standpoint, I think it'd be awesome. I'd love to be having a conversation with you and for your voice to be reaaaaly low, and to be able to (although this'd be ages away, haha) stroke your stubble.
YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
Also, it could make you grow!
♪[51] DEITO DEITO DEITO DEITO DEITO DEITO [19]♪ says:
XDDD
YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
and, as I've said before, it'd be awesome to witness you with an increased libido.
YellowSphere/Soapie ~ www.studiotokyo.co.uk says:
with a clitoris so gargantuan that you can see it through your underwear.

I love her so much. X3 Even if she is just a dirty little pervert - she's still absolutely wonderful and she makes me feel so positive about this.

Hayley/Danyata also makes me feel great about this, because from the start she has been so very supportive and caring and I know that she will be happy with whatever I do - she has been the best friend to me throughout all of this.

I know that Elizabeth and I are growing apart, but with me sorting myself out I hope that we'll be able to be close again because I love her and I want her to one day see me as a man, even if it will be difficult - especially considering her slight fear of men. I trust that she'll try, and I adore her for that. Her quiet support kept me going for so many years.

So, yes!

The youth clinic-thingie is going to contact me as soon as they've sorted out appointments for me, and of course on the 20th I'll see Dr. Hill and I think I'll see her alone this time, not with my Mother, to make it a bit easier to say that I wish to transition in the future.

I cannot see myself as a woman in the future. I have stopped wearing make-up, I have stopped wearing feminine clothing except when it's for my family and overall I just.. I don't know. I'm not insecure anymore - I don't feel like I need to cover myself in crap to be attractive.
Sophie said that I was beautiful today, and that is reassurance enough for the rest of my life.

So many years of research coming to an end! It's quite bizarre. I need to ask someone about the dangers - I know that T increases risk of heart disease, and diabetes which I'm prone to as it's in my genes, and it shortens your life.
I'll need some guidance and support in healthy living, too. I've taken up cycling and will hopefully at some point be able to cycle somewhere other than a circle in the garden because I keep crashing into trees and the lawn mower. >>;
I need to sort out my diet, too. Man cannot live on potatoes and cheese alone.

So, yeah. C: That's all for this merry update.

Loveyouall~

I Love You, Dr. Hill!

2006-06-09T09:34:34Z

C: The Doctor I went to see before is so awesome.

Someone called this morning and I heard my Mum going, "Anna?" [It still takes a while to register that that's my name - I don't know if this is good or bad!] "She's in bed." then she came in my room and rudely disturbed my being asleep at 10AM.
I asked who it was, but Marie thought it was too rude to ask and accidently cut the phone off. x_X
But they called back, I answered, and it was Dr. Hill. C: She said she'd been looking into other clinics and was wondering if I'd like to go back for another appointment for a refferal to a place in Charing Cross because she's been doing research. I'm all like, "Lolyesplz~"
She's so undeniably cool - most of the Doctors in that place are twatty, but she went out of her way to research GID-related clinics to help me.

So she's going to do some digging and researching, and my appointment is on Tuesday 20th June at 5PM. C: I feel groovy to be her first Trans patient.

Rock on.

FUCK YOUR FUCKING STORY.

2006-06-08T08:27:08Z

D:<

Kayso.

My Mother is writing a crime story.

She wants me to type out, edit and "improve" it.

She's good with stories, just has a bit of trouble putting them into words - plus her spelling and grammar needs major work.

But the fact is that it will take me a fucking long time to do it, I started a couple of days ago, 'n'.. I've told her that I want her to finish it before I type it up and then she can make alterations - because she's said 50 times before that she will write this story, but only starts it.

She's written a few chapters, but I still want her to finish it, because she never bloody finishes anything and I refuse to waste time on a dead project for her.

So what does she do?

"OH SHUT THE FUCK UP, YOU WEREN'T GOING TO FUCKING DO IT ANYWAY, FUCK OFF."

She's so lovely.

I'm getting pissed off with her attitude problem, she acts like a kid and I'm fed up with having to play the role of the adult.

Also if I mention anything about my problems she just starts going, "WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO BE DEPRESSED ABOUT!? OH I MIGHT AS WELL GO AND FUCKING KILL MYSELF."

I hate when she keeps saying that.

Everyone knows that our family has a history of being overly stressed out and depressed - Tracy and Marie have had counselling for it, now I need counselling for it, and my Mother has had a shitty life but remains in denial about how she feels. I know for a fact that she's tried to commit suicide before, she used to tell me how much she hates me and when she was my age she was a major self harmer.

I'm pissed off with it all.

The sooner I get out of here, the better.

SMMMMMMMAP

2006-06-07T18:06:31Z

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